Beyond What Eyes Can See

If someone couldn’t see me and asked me to describe myself, I think I’d pause, not because I wouldn’t know what to say, but because it’s hard to wrap a whole human into neat little words. Still, I’d try.

I’d say, “I’m someone who feels deeply, even when I don’t show it. I live in my head a lot, constantly overthinking, romanticizing ordinary moments, and sometimes overanalyzing my own existence. I notice the little things, the way someone’s voice softens when they care, the silence between two people who are drifting, the weight behind someone’s ‘I’m fine.’”

I carry a soft heart, but I’ve also had to build quiet armor around it. Life teaches us to toughen up, especially in a world that celebrates performance over authenticity. But I’m still that person who hopes, who roots for people, who cries at late-night poetry and old songs. I’m the kind of person who might feel out of place in a crowd but completely at home in a deep one-on-one conversation. And honestly, I’d pick raw honesty over small talk any day.

I’m spiritual, not in the ritualistic sense, but in how I believe in energy, in karma, in the way the universe works in mysterious alignments. I believe that healing isn’t linear, and that our souls carry wounds from places even words can’t reach. But I also believe in light, that even the most tired heart can bloom again. I don’t have all the answers, but I’m constantly searching, asking, unlearning.

Emotionally, I’m full of little contradictions. I’m soft, but I’ve been through enough to be strong too. I’m quiet most of the time, but I open up deeply when I feel safe. I believe in giving people another chance, but I’ve also learned when it’s time to let go for my own peace. I’m trying to break old patterns passed down through my family, while also learning how to love others, and myself, in a healthier way. I’m slowly understanding that setting boundaries doesn’t mean I’m pushing people away, that being alone isn’t the same as being lonely, and that not every love has to last forever to be real.

And like most of us in today’s generation, I’m tired, but not just tired in the physical sense. It’s that soul-exhaustion from constantly trying to balance the weight of expectations, the highlight reels of social media, the ache to be understood, and the pressure to always have your life “figured out.” But I still wake up every day with the stubborn hope that something beautiful is coming, that I’m not running out of time, I’m right on my path.

So, if you couldn’t see me, I’d say I’m the kind of person you’d get to know through the things I write, the way I hold space for you, the way I listen, and how I sit with you in your mess without needing you to fix it. I might not be the loudest in the room, but I’m the one who will remember what you said three weeks ago because it mattered to you.

I’m a work in progress. A soul in transit. A heart learning to beat without fear. And above all, I’m human, messy, beautiful, layered, flawed, and trying my best to live this life with meaning.

That’s me. Beyond what eyes can see.

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7 responses to “Beyond What Eyes Can See”

  1. Kitna achha likh leti ho yaar!!

    Tumhaare essay me bhi mujhe poetry aur art dikhti hai; music flow hota hai.
    Tumhe padhna aur janna vaisa hai jaise closely focused hokr nature ko samajh rhe ho. Because flow hai starting se end tak, alag alag topics hain jaise body ke organs hote hain; aur harek organ ka apna system hai jaise tum harek subtopic ko detail me discuss krti ho.

    Sab log sundar nhi hote…aur ho bhi toh apne me woh chij woh dekh nhi paate. Isaliye toh hum apne aap ko jyada kosate hain.

    → the boundaries are important to safeguard yourself; gaps and distances are relevant too,
    → spirituality means belief in the universe functioning. I too believe that,
    → the society creates pressures and make age old rules. We need to pursue meaningful freedom,
    → and the tiredness is the most relatable point here. I feel tired both physically and mentally. It affects my movement;

    Tumne last me achhe se sum up kiya ki life messy hai, aur hum me flaws hai. Iska matlab yeh nhi ki hum darr darr kr jiye.
    Aur hume apne aapse aur apne kaam se pyaar hai.

    I realise overthinking jo hum log krte hain woh isse related hain ki hum kya feel krte hain aur apne aapko kaise dekhte hain.
    Main jhuth nhi bolunga, overthinking par tumne jo likha uski harek baat mujhe relatable lagi.
    Aaj subah padhne baitha. Par overthinking ke chakkar me focus hi nhi kr paaya.

    Ek toh childhood aur teenage me love stories padhne ka hum logon par gehra asar padaa hai. Unko padh padhkr hum log kaafi imaginative ho gye hain.
    Humaare liye yah mushkil ho jaata hai ki hum kisi chij ko vaisa hi dekhein jaisi woh hai. Hume hamesha uska philosophical aspect dikhta hai.
    Yeh ek tarah ki unpaid internship hai.😂

    Keep writing, Neha!
    Achha likhti ho tum. Itna peaceful, alive aur beautiful insaan aajkal rarely dekhne ho milta hai.
    Maine long comment nhi likhne ka socha tha. But kya karun main..??

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    1. “I’m someone who feels deeply, even when I don’t show it. I live in my head a lot, constantly overthinking, romanticizing ordinary moments, and sometimes overanalyzing my own existence.”
      This is me. 💯

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      1. I’m really glad it resonated with you. Honestly, knowing that even one line felt like you makes all of it worth it. 💛

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    2. Aww honestly, your comment truly touched me. 🌸

      The way you read with so much depth and noticed every little layer, that’s rare. What you said, especially about the essay flowing like organs in a body, and how overthinking connects to how we feel about ourselves… it was so beautifully put, I read it twice.

      And that “unpaid internship” line, made me smile 😄. So accurate and funny at the same time!

      It’s things like this that remind me why writing is worth it. When someone reads not just the words, but also the feelings behind them, it means everything. Thank you for seeing it so clearly and saying it with such warmth.

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      1. 🤛🏽

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  2. I love this, and very well-written! Thanks so much for sharing 🙂

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    1. Thank You!!

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